Awakening to my Calling
In 2006 when my inner and outer worlds seemed bereft of joy, I began to draw a Tibetan Mandala. I had barely finished, when I was suddenly inspired to draw and paint several of my own designs. I became consumed by the process which forced me to be more present, freeing me from my own thoughts.
My creations were akin to Sacred Geometry. Slowly, delicately, gently, I drew my lines; tuned into the colours and patterns; played with a variety of paints and brushes; and all the while listening to my intuition. I was awakening to the multi-faceted experience that was my life.
This was the beginning of my conscious, spiritual awakening. A shamanic journey that took me into myself and back out again, in waking and in sleep state. My lucid dreams were becoming more palpable.
I was no longer satiated with possessions, others’ opinions, drinking, partying, pot-smoking, being part of the rat race, etc. My soul longed for deeper meaning, true joy and love. I knew I was here for a purpose but what was this elusive, mercurial state of being that I seemed to be searching for throughout my existence?
I went to see a very skilled clairvoyant who introduced me to a host of spiritually evolved authors and energy workers. I gratefully received my medicine and pursued it with fervour. The clearing and purging began in earnest as I put myself through a diet of regular breathwork, energy balances, shamanic training, fire walking, Kahuna’s, Mayan abdominal massages…the list goes on.
In 2008, I embarked on a pilgrimage across the Camino de Santiago (The Way of St James). The veil had truly begun to lift. Having reconnected to Gaia on my Earth walk, I felt truly empowered and upon my return home to Australia, my soul began to take charge for my highest good. The toxic relationship that I had been involved in for 15 years finally came to a complete end. I was free.
I began seeing more and more signs, experiencing serendipitous moments and having visions which confirmed to me that I was on the right path. Invited by the ‘Feather Sisters’, I held my first art exhibition – ‘One’ in 2009 which included my Sacred Geometry paintings as well as other works. Having completed my Diploma in Transpersonal Art Therapy in 2013, I travelled to Peru where I began my initiatory experiences as a Shamanic healer and Medicine Woman.
A part of me felt like I was reacquainting myself with a past life and home. I was brought to tears as the local Shaman healed and cleansed me with his chanting and rhythmic Chakapa ritual summoning my powerful totem animal, whom I had already met through lucid dreaming states. The sacred plant medicine, mother Ayahuasca also made her presence known to me and so began an even deeper purification of my mind, body and soul…on a cellular level.
My inner and outer work continues to this day because it is why I am here – to learn, evolve, develop and share my innate gifts and experiences. We are all fellow students who are loved unconditionally by the Creator, and forever nurtured and held by Pachamama. As our veils continues to lift and we remember who we truly are, there is nothing more powerful and beautiful than the sheer bliss of love and light within our very souls. And this, dear ones is how we are all connected…through Divine Love.
Shadows of Light by Haylee Clare:
Ancient and infinitely wise, I live in the ocean of the Heart. Beyond your mind, I Am.